Prommy prom prom.

   So, my senior prom came to an end not too long ago. It was the best, yet worst prom EVER. I know that's hard to believe, but it's true.

  The whole prom process is fun for girls. Hair, makeup, nails, shoes... Need I add more? It's a girls biggest day. Next to her wedding, of course. Once I find out the date of my prom, I book things right then and there. Luckily, my hair dresser happens to be one of my favorite cousins. My best friend's mother is also a florist. So my boutonnière and corsage are always good to go. 

   My senior prom came and flew like that. Getting pampered is nice, but making memories with your friends, is just as fun. This year a couple we decided not to rent a limo or party bus. We drove ourselves and it was just as fun. We ate at Raising Canes and then headed off to the venue which was just a few buildings down. I got the privilege of taking one of m most favoritest people as my date, Luke. He cleans up nicely. We then made our way to after prom where seniors didn't win many gifts... I'm not getting int othis because I'll probably get upset again. At the end of the day, I had fun and Luke and I became official. Yay yay yay. Cue the pics.

Luke and I

Cousin and I

Father

Mother

Grandmother

Life

As I sit here with my lemon water and package of Thin Mint Amercian Girl Scout Cookies, I realize I'm entirely stressed out. With it being the last 9 weeks of my high school career, I just want to take a step back and soak it all in. I also realized I am booked full to the top. 

  I'm used to taking naps. Every day. Right after school. I'll wake up, go to college, head to high school, then sleep for a couple of hours. I know, I know.. I'm not making the most of my time but i do enjoy a wink or two every now and then... Okay, every other day. With prom being this weekend, and softball games ( just manager, ha) I realize I barely have any time for myself. I'm definitely not used to this. I'm used to having a couple hours a day to do as I please. With college, softball games, taking pictures, and social life... I now don't have time for my naps. 

 Don't get me wrong, I love staying busy. I also like helping people- another issue I've ran into. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm a people pleaser. I know, I shouldn't care what people think, but if I have the chance to help out, I'll take it- no questions asked. I love being known as dependable and reliable. This is a problem because I'll sign myself up for a million things, and not have time to do all of them. I overbook myself quite often. Of I could be in three places at once I so would. Unfortunately, that is not possible. I have to out my needs first and do what's best for me, regardless of what others think is best. And so that is where I am today. What my thoughts reflect upon, and what I'm learning from. 

                               -Courtney 

Senioritis

 2 more months

  It has come to my attention that in two more months I will no longer be a student at the only school I've ever known. It is truly bitter sweet. I've said it a million times, and I'll say it again: I truly love my school and the people I grew up with. I knew since my junior year that this town would indeed be hard to part from. I love the feeling of high school. You can drive, but you don't have to pay bills (well I don't have to...yet). I love going home with my friends just to prepare for the friday night football game. I love finding out that were watching a movie in english class, or finding out you passed your algebra 2 test. I love being able to watch myself on the surveillance camera to replay myself falling while running on the sidewalk. I love dressing up like a mermaid to cheer on our basketball team to state. I love getting out of school to go watch them. I love all these things because even though they're not really big "deals" they will be the things I remember most. I may not remember the song my girls and I listened to on the way to a far away town to watch a football game, but I will remember the memories. I'll remember the curb hopping,speeding, sonic slurping giggles that we had while reminiscing about the past couple years. I'll remember the final pass of our last football game, our last meeting day, and of course I will for sure remember the last time I walk out of those double doors that I've went in and out of the last four years. It truly goes by too fast. 

   Now, at the moment (and for the last four years), I have/had "senioritis" which is what seniors who don't want to do their work, or have no desire to do it has. It's quite common. I have no wanting to do a research paper, read a book, or write poetry. I do enjoy taking photos at sporting events and I spend a good portion of time editing and uploading photos, which I do not mind one bit. 

    As of right now I (still) don't have any sort of clue what I want to do with my life. I just want to be happy. I want to be happy with what I'm doing and where I am. I want to love who I'm with. Life is too short and I think I spend most of my time constantly worrying... About absurd things of course. I worry about what I'm going to the next day, week, or year. I'm constantly worrying about what I'm going to do with my life. So I finally decided that I'm going to be happy. I'm going to be happy despite the circumstances because that's what we all deserve. We deserve to do what makes us happy. We deserve to be happy. And that's all I want. 

Because why not

A lot has been a hoppin' lately. I've realized blogging isn't as easy to do when your wifi isn't consistent, and you attend every high school game, and trying to finish college essays... Or put them off, I should say. That is the life I live. 

 I guess I'll start where I left off. I'm sure it was between me wanting to be a baby highschooler forever and then singing my wee little heart out at football. A lot has happened since then, and I would like to share it all. First off, I was a gnarly penguin for Halloween again. Yes, I was one the year before, but broke girl ain't got no change to buy a hottie tottie costume.

I watched our football season come to an end in the freezing cold. I may have been a little emotional about this because I truly do watching the boys I put up with play a sport their passionate about. With dried tears on my face, I hugged each one of them. 

I then  got to spend Thanksgiving with my grandmother dearest's side of the family. Breast feeding is always a popular topic around the holidays. Why you ask? The world may never know.  

My lovely sister and I 

Grandmother and I 

La familia 

I also had an excellenté Christmas. I of course, spent it with my grandmother again because she makes really good food. I got tons of gift and perfume, because apparently I smell weird. It was a very nice holiday season. 

    Green couch photo 

My favorite 

   I won't talk about my New Years event because not many people know about it yet and I do still want to live at home, but I rang in the year with some people I'm quite fond of and I'm glad I survived the chill of the night. Since the new year has approached, I've started my second semester of college, sang the national anthem a few more times, auditioned to sing it at state basketball, spent money on food that I probably shouldn't have, did some more squats (and not because I had to pee), and of course, made some memories I'll cherish forever. So far I like 2014 but I'm sad because it's going by so quick. This is all I got. Enjoy some random photos