Senioritis

 2 more months

  It has come to my attention that in two more months I will no longer be a student at the only school I've ever known. It is truly bitter sweet. I've said it a million times, and I'll say it again: I truly love my school and the people I grew up with. I knew since my junior year that this town would indeed be hard to part from. I love the feeling of high school. You can drive, but you don't have to pay bills (well I don't have to...yet). I love going home with my friends just to prepare for the friday night football game. I love finding out that were watching a movie in english class, or finding out you passed your algebra 2 test. I love being able to watch myself on the surveillance camera to replay myself falling while running on the sidewalk. I love dressing up like a mermaid to cheer on our basketball team to state. I love getting out of school to go watch them. I love all these things because even though they're not really big "deals" they will be the things I remember most. I may not remember the song my girls and I listened to on the way to a far away town to watch a football game, but I will remember the memories. I'll remember the curb hopping,speeding, sonic slurping giggles that we had while reminiscing about the past couple years. I'll remember the final pass of our last football game, our last meeting day, and of course I will for sure remember the last time I walk out of those double doors that I've went in and out of the last four years. It truly goes by too fast. 

   Now, at the moment (and for the last four years), I have/had "senioritis" which is what seniors who don't want to do their work, or have no desire to do it has. It's quite common. I have no wanting to do a research paper, read a book, or write poetry. I do enjoy taking photos at sporting events and I spend a good portion of time editing and uploading photos, which I do not mind one bit. 

    As of right now I (still) don't have any sort of clue what I want to do with my life. I just want to be happy. I want to be happy with what I'm doing and where I am. I want to love who I'm with. Life is too short and I think I spend most of my time constantly worrying... About absurd things of course. I worry about what I'm going to the next day, week, or year. I'm constantly worrying about what I'm going to do with my life. So I finally decided that I'm going to be happy. I'm going to be happy despite the circumstances because that's what we all deserve. We deserve to do what makes us happy. We deserve to be happy. And that's all I want.